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| OMG. I just realized that I haven't posted a public entry on here in 6th months. First of all, how in the hell do six months fly by so quickly? YIKES.
Secondly, I'm alive. Alive and well, that's a whole other topic.
Third, I haven't posted much of anything anywhere cept for facebook. There's just more interaction over there, no tumble weeds going by like on myspace or even here sometimes. So in a way, yes that's the betrayal right there. I hope people are still on here posting and reading as my LJ has always been there for me, and I hope to never turn my back on it again.
I'm on twitter for silly minutia
JenniePlusOne.
Also have a tumbler account with the same handle, but i haven't decided if i will use it or not.
I don't really have time for a proper update right now, but I would like to share that I haven't had a cigarrette since the second week of October 08, yeah, it was only while drinking, but that shit adds up over the years.. and I've pretty much given up celebrity gossip sites! Used to be addicted. haahahaha..
I'll be be back soon, I promise.
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but you know what.. I don't know a whole lot of people who could say that that's their lipstick on james iha's cheek. UGH. miss these days soo much.
Just reminiscing about the pumpkins is all.. James Iha, come back to me! damn all you nosy fucks that ran him off friendster and myspace.
this picture was taking in late 2005. James was kind enough to put me on the list for the sounds show and afterparty. Of course.. his type is of the blonde and size 0 so there went my chances. Ha, he did sorta ask me out on a date on myspace tho. no, JOKE. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| I've never been a big fan of KOL as they are so lovingly known by hard-core fans and I've seen enough of their progression over the last 5 years to admit that( I saw Jet open up for them back in 2003). They just never did it for me until now that is-with the exception of "On Call" from their last album. OMG. their new album ,"Only by the Night" is pure brilliance. Seriously, and I've never been a big fan of southern rock and they are definitely channeling My Morning Jacket here. Anyway, the reason I'm even bringing them up is because the song "use somebody" is literally killing me.
I wanted to post the official video for the song but I can only link it, but i think it's actually pretty awesome because it was filmed in downtown LA and on 7th street near santa fe at this Mexican cantina/pool hall. Aside from the proximity to my house... the video actually does a good job at capturing that tremendous feeling of loneliness and despair one can tend to feel you're single, experiencing unrequited(ahem-isn't it odd how you can crush on someone four years ago, not be in physical contact with that person for about three years(last run-in) but chat with them via social networking sites-ahem-facebook and totally still want that person? geeze, what is my problem?!) love or your significant other is not around.
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check it out here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JCZfJ5ai07U
If you're too lazy to follow the link then enjoy this clip of the song on my favorite music show of all time-Later with Jools Holland.
I’ve been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, build the places I cant reach
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street
You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you
Off in the night, while you live it up, I’m off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it’s gonna make you notice
I hope it’s gonna make you notice
Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
I’ve been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | I haven't journaled in forever, must make a change to that. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Been a while since I got a really ridiculous message on myspace and this one's so good, i had to share it with everyone else. actually the guy that sent it to me is pretty attractive, so maybe I won't be too offended.
Jennie,
I am a model scout for the adult entertainment website. We are based on the Los Angeles area but we have photographers in a number of cities around the world.
I think that you are incredibly attractive and would be a great fit for our site, so I have selected you to be one of our candidates for modeling :) This is a terrific opportunity for you for a number of reasons.
First, you will be paid extremely well. Modeling assignments start at $4000 at a bare minimum for a one-time topless photo shoot, and there are opportunities for much, much more depending on how much you are willing to show, and if you sign a long-term exclusivity contract with our website. You will be paid in full on the day of the shoot.
Second, you will never have to pay anything ever. All traveling expenses and wardrobe are completely paid for.
Third, our photographers are extremely professional. All models are completely respected. You will never ever be touched during a shoot, and you will never be pressured to do more than you want to do.
Lastly, you don't need any experience whatsoever! In fact, most of the models we recruit have never done any shoots before, so you don't need to worry about not knowing what to do. We'll help you out with whatever you need.
Here's what will happen if you choose to take advantage of this opportunity:
-We will require a decent quality photo of you that is at a minimum topless which will be forwarded to my boss for review
-If he selects you as one of our models (roughly 90% of candidates end up being selected), we will contact you by your preferred method and let you know how much you will be paid and set up a time that works best for you for a shoot
-On the day of the shoot, you can either be picked up by the photographer or drive yourself to the shoot location. We understand any safety concerns you may have, so if you wish you may bring along a friend. The only other person that will be at the shoot is the photographer.
-After the shoot, you will receive a check for the agreed upon amount (plus some cash for gas if you drove yourself) and be transported back
And that's it!
If this sounds like something you would want to do, you need to send an e-mail to me at with the following:
-How much you would be willing to show during the photo shoot (it is perfectly fine to choose to only do a topless shoot)
-A decent photo or photos of yourself (it is a good idea to show as much as you say you are willing to)
-Whether or not you would consider signing a long-term exclusivity contract. You don't have to decide now, so if you aren't sure yet then just let us know
-Your preferred contact method (email, phone, etc)
Also, if you don't think you would want to do this kind of work (or even if you do), if you know of anyone who you think might want to, tell them to send an email to me with the above information and to mention your name and you will get a 10% referral bonus from their first shoot.
If you have any questions whatsoever please don't hesitate to ask!
Thanks a bunch,
M Wheeler
THE END. I was really angry a few minutes before I got this so at least it served to calm my nerves. Like I said, while it's offensive that they'd assume that this would be my kind of thing, it's still totally flattering in a strange,sick way, i suppose. ha! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| which can probably be attributed to the copious amounts of alcohol I've had this past week. Yet another reason why I miss 2004-2005 so much. I used to go out 4-5nites a week and drink up a storm and not feel quite as shitty as I do now when I'm probably only drinking two nites of the week, if that. I need to drink less hard liquor and start drinking beer-no all-day lasting nausea and stomach aches.
Turns out the last seven days have actually been pretty awesome. Lots of great music and lots of good pals.
Monday was the Cut///Copy show and they were awesome. Of course they didn't do my favorite song "Going Nowhere" but they delivered with everything else.
Thursday saw me at Death Cab for Cutie at Kimmel and then the French Kicks with Melissa. OMG. they were so good this time around. They actually played all the songs I wanted to hear and then some. I hate it when bands refuse to play the songs that the fans want to hear.
Had dinner at suheiros with Mel and we both had the most blandest, unsatisfying items on the menu. Saturday saw Mel, Amy and I have a slumber party of sorts that actually started at like 5 with grub in old town proceeded by lots and lots of new castle. Amy knocked out early and I was pretty tired myself but Melissa and I then decided we would go on livejournal for whatever reason and ended up reading tons of peeps lj entries from like 2004-2005, which further made us feel old and made us miss that magical time. I need to start journaling on a regular basis because my memory sucks and I forget tons of stuff and it's always nice but totally depressing to go back and read an old entry. If LJ ever explodes one day and these journals are lost I might self combust.
Yesterday was fun with the fam. I achieved an amazing goal of getting my brother frank into CUT COPY. This is a massive feat only because he thinks Blaq Audio are amazing. BLAH.My newphew is so adorable. he's the best things about weekends. too bad the little mofo refuses to learn my name. i kow he's doing it on purpose too. I ate really terribly these last four days. I even ate hot dogs knowing that they are made with connective tissue and all kinds of gross shit. I wont appologize for the steak and grilled chicken samaches, those were amazing. Back to healthy eats today. The weather has been amazing these last few days, if only it could be cold and overcast every day. I friggen hate summer. The thought of the impending heat is making me nauseous. But all in all, very good week with great people. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| How I wish you could see the potential,
the potential of you and me
It's like a book elegantly bound,
but in a language that you can't read just yet
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
There are days when outside your window,
I see my reflection as I slowly pass
And I long for this mirrored perspective,
when we'll be lovers, lovers at last
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
I will possess your heart
I will possess your heart
You reject my advances and desperate pleas
I won't let you, let me down so easily, so easily
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
You gotta spend some time love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love, I will possess your heart
I will possess your heart
I will possess your heart
I will possess your heart
Geeze, I just found out Ben is only 31 years old. Not that he looks old and haggard BUT i thought he was well into his mid-thirties, consisidering dcfc's first album came out over 10 years ago. maybe that's why he was douchie the two times ive been in his presence-he was only like 26 or 27 at the time.Still young enough to be immature.
His particular style of lyrical genius is only comprable tothat of Morrissey. THey both share the uncanny ability to simultaneously depress the hell out of me but lift my spirits and give me hope, oh such a dichotomy-i might as well be bipolar when i listen to their tunes.
Fortunately, im not currently experiencing the kind of unrequieted love the song suggests, but boy have i been there in the past and one time it totally happened and stopped being unrequited and ironically it ended up being one of the worst things to happen to me in a long time I'm so removed from it now and learned so much about how fucked up people can be, so at least it was a learning experience.
and on a totally unrelated note, John Cusack is still totally do-able. yummy!It really isn't fair that dudes either get more attactive as they age(most not all-hello tom cruise-yuck)but women don't look as refined and are considered old hags/or cougars. | | comments: 11 comments or Leave a comment |
| My boyfriend, Chris, at the HOB in Anahiem last week. He was totally having eye sex with me during the show. Just ask Daisy, she witnessed it in awe. He didn't bring up the pink eye incident from cinespace '06
Paul being very Chris Martiney and all that. He's quite loveable and humble and gracious.
Here's one more of Paul and Russel
Of course I can't take credit for these awesome pictures, it goes out to John, the 60ish silver stallion enjoying the show from the front row. I salute you, John!
Highlights of the evening include:
Free beer compliments of Hot Hot Heat.
Daisy and I making our way all the way to the front row right before Editors came on. I'm pretty sure we weren't supposed to be standing there but security was enamored with us so he let us stay.
Editors drummer, Ed, telling me that they all had gone to a house party after the Wiltern show out in the "east" and that it took "forever-like an hour" to get there. And that they might come back before year's end to tour. I'm not really sure, I can't remember what he was telling me about that or perhaps working on new album. That's what free beer will do to your memory.
Perfect, perfect show(as was the Wiltern show, view sucked but crowd energy was great-Michele and I were trying to out dance and out pogo two very flamboyant gays right besides us. We totally won). I don't think I could love them anymore than I already do.
Thanks for the tickets, Norms, sorry ya couldn't make it. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Hope everyone has a fun and safe nye and that 2008 is full of greatness, blessings and great memories. Cheers | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Happy Xmas.Totally late on this but hope everyone had a nice one. mine was uneventful and kind of just zoomed by. Just finished watching "Love Actually" and my god do I love that movie. Perfect for the holidays. I love it because it gives me hope and hope is very hard to come by these days. And the fact that its set in London and France makes it pretty easy to love.Really fucken hard to believe that just last year around this time I was in both countries. wish i could have stayed and never come back or at least have an extended stay.anyway, enough reminiscing for now.. New years is less than a week away nd hopefully something fun or magically amazing will happen. Cheers! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I'll start off with the best news i've had in a while: My mom and I went to go see her surgeon yesterday and he gave us some really amazing news. He said her tumor had shrunk by more than 50% and that she was ready for surgery to have the rest of it removed. the chemo has been working really well because the tumor started off at 13 and some centimeters and now its down to like 5.5. I knew my mom could fight this, I'm so proud of her. He also said that tumor doesn't look like it's attached to anything, and if it is that it shouldn't cost her too much damage to that abdominal area. thank GOD, seriously. She's already been through so much with the surgery to remove the tumor on her heart this past summer so we are all so glad to hear that this surgery should go smoothly as well. thanks again to everyone that continues to ask about her and such-means a ton. the surgery will be in mid november so you'llbe sure ill be coming around asking for prayers and such.
and now on a totally unrelated topic-Interpol week is over, im sorry to say. It has been quite bittersweet and I'll just leave it at that for now. Carlos pulled through for the list(glad to know he's kept his promises regarding the list) in san fran and I was able to get Melissa in which is great because she always hooks everyone else up with tickets. And i know that she had a great time and really appreciated it so that's a plus. Highlight of sf trip was talking Daniel after the show in san fran since it had been forever and a half since I saw him last. and I can just say that I will probably always love that man.Even now, I still get so nervous when I talk to him even tho he totally knows me and blah blah blah.Decided to give Carlos a little break from listing me for LA so Daniel pulled through for the forum. Brought Jeff with me which was great cuz him and andy are always hooking everyone else up with free tickets too.( sorry I coudlnt get you in, andy) Both shows were great. We waltzed in right before they came on for both nites and we still managed to get up to the front on daniels side-my favorite side of course. hahahah.I probably should have drank less as my memory is fuzzy on some parts. I'm still kicking myself for not finding a way to their san diego show back in June. Never turn down interpol tickets and passes! shit will come back to bite you in the ass. Amazing how much people change in a year and a half. these guys are not the same people they used to be, cept maybe for sam. But if they are healthy and happy then I can't complain.
Daisy has a keen way of putting things into perspective for me.She reminded me of how amazing my life has been the last five years-despite the heartbreak and other personal and familial issues and illnesses that have arisen. She's totally right. I was sifting through my old journal entries from 2003 to now and I've done some amazing shit, met some amazing people and hung out with my favorite band and then some(james iha ahem)I've been so lucky and blessed. I have so many amazing memories, it's ridiculous. I don't think that there is any way that the next five years can top the last five years but who knows. just don't to get old.lol. ahhhhhh and my birthday is next week. yuck. I need to find away to get my brain to stop thinking about shit that I can't control like getting older. why couldn't i stay 23 for ever? best year of my life, hands down! ahahaha. anyway, enough blabbering. I'm just glad i've chronicled my thoughts in this journal so that I can go back and read about what happened. I need to update more regularly. I think i've only posted like four times this year.. which is alot considering i've been comatose for most of it. anyway.. i've blabbed on for too long. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| *sigh* I had vip guestlist action for Mark Ronson's afterparty tonite and could not find a single person who wanted to go. I seriously asked like 8 people and gave up at around 11.30 pm. This pains me for a myriad of reasons but mostly because I really wanted to see/hear him dj. I know i sprung it on everyone totally last minute but i didn't actually know about it till this morning.
On the bright side of things I was able to go to jimmy kimmel and watch him last nite and he was soo good. I met him after the show which i wasn't expecting since we didn't pull the usual wait in the alley biz. omg he was so fucken cool and gracious and gorgeous. aye. i seriously felt tingly things all over. I don't really crush too much anymore but i kinda felt like the way i felt when i met jimmy fallon like when i was 18 and he was soo awesome to me and i was inlove. well, about as inlove asyou can be with someone who is famous. so yeah, mark and i totally had eye sex and I just couldn't stop looking at him but I had to go since my companion for the evening wasn't really into waiting around and im lucky she even went.
so this is why im so bummed out about tonite because I just wanted to be in his presense again, for a few minutes or to just look at him because his pictures/film don't do him justice. and the fact that he's not a douche like i thought he might be just makes me want him more. ha!
so ill just quitely weep for now and get giddy at the fact that we had phyiscal contact.
LOOK at him. can you blame me?oh and the fact that he's a talented musician and producer doesn't hurt either.
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| PANIC thats what. ive been trying so hard to go to bed at like midnite and i stay up till now. its about 4 am and it's driving me nuts. anyway, i'll further elaborate on this panic in my next entry. panic is a really good way to describe it.
ps. have fun on your vaca, mel! ill miss you. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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H&M Jacket. 35 shipped Large/XL
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| ts time to get away, its time to get away from you
Its time to get away, its time to get away from you
You brought a lot of money
But me, [look it�s a tidy ------]
And you, you make me sleep
I try and try
But you�re under my knee
And I start to be sensible (if you know what I mean)
And so its time to get away, Its time to get away from you
I�m dying to get away, I�m dying to get away
Next time we�ll talk it over
And we can start again
For you, I caught a lot of static
And me, I would like it automatic
Ah-what what what what what did you think would happen next?
Ah-what what what what what could it ever be?
Though its time to get away, its time to get away from you
I�m dying to get away, I�m dying to get away
Next time let�s talk about it
And maybe start again
To think I used to pity you
To think I used to pity you, it�s true
To think I used to pity you
To think I used to talk to you, it�s true
Next time we can talk about it
Or even start again
I couldn�t tell you what you wanted
(You know what I�m saying?) I knew you were low man,
But the truth is I was shocked
[Of] power eyes, eyes never lie
Kids, Kids never lie | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | you really dont want to be on it right now. im hating 99 percent of the population right now. hopefully youre in that one percent. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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what the eff?? this is sooooooo not coool! What am I supposed to drink now if I'm sleep and money deprived?? This was my favorite when I was broke and not looking too get shit-faced trashed. What will I drink when I'm in the Mission District in SF and I need something but I'm trying to avoid Malt Liquor and being too ghetto so I get the Sparks that has a sticker price tag on it that reads" $1.99 out the door"?Why would they do this to one of the choice beverages of my youth? End of a motha effin era if you ask me.